Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Everyday People

Hi all,

Everyday People. Everyday People are the individuals with whom you create your life. They are the ones that, whether physically present or not, influence you everyday. These are the people that, when for whatever reason, you lose them... your life noticeably changes and you can recognize that change.

Just because you don't see someone everyday doesn't mean they aren't influencing you. Some of my best friends in the world (and really, I mean in the world as they are located all over the place) are Leah, Dave, and Rae. I haven't seen any of them in countless years. I barely speak to them and yet, they are my part of my Everyday People. If for whatever reason, I were to lose them, part of me would die. And I would feel it. Everyday.

Liane was one of my closest friends growing up. I like to say we were best friends for 10 years, although who knows when the friendship stopped on her side. Occasionally, I see her around. But I'm dead to her and in my life, she is no longer. When she decided that she no longer wanted any part of me, I lost a bit of myself. Everything that I'd put into creating what I had with her was lost. And to this day, even though we parted ways now more than 10 years ago, I still feel that loss.

And she was not my only loss. There have been many. Some by choice, either theirs or mine. And some by fate.

Sometimes you lose someone and then get them back again. In those cases, it doesn't always mean that you get back the piece that you lost. Sometimes it's gone for good... and you then have to take what's left of what you have, if anything, and try to rebuild.

Recently, I lost another one of my Everyday People. His path only briefly crossed mine, but he taught me so much in that short time. He is no longer here because I asked him, pleaded with him, screamed at him to leave. And he did. And while I'm sure he's cursing me and cursing all he's lost now that I'm not part of his life, he doesn't realize that he's not the only one who is feeling a sense of loss. Afterall, he was part of my Everyday.

And we both lost a lot.

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To My Everyday People, past, present, and future - Thank you for being there - or even being not there. Thank you for giving me second chances (sometimes third, fourth, fifth, infinity chances). Thank you for kicking my ass when I need it. Hugging me when I need it. Loving me when I need it. For telling me what I need. For letting me figure out what I need. For just being. Because I wouldn't be who I am without you.

<3

/me.

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