Friday, December 31, 2004

Salsa, Games and New Year

So, yes, it seems that people like to read just my most recent blogs, so I shall reiterate in this one that I have decided to leave Japan-- for good. [Or unless until further notice.] and go back to Hawaii. I've been having a hell of a time trying to sell my furniture and I have a feeling I'm just going to take a huge loss on it all. Anyway, yes, I will be home on Saturday, January 8th. Any mail you want to send me can be sent to

2361 Jennie Street
Honolulu, Hawaii 96819

Well, I feel as though I've been going out a lot. The day before my last day of work, after work [does that make sense], I went to karaoke with 2 students and Mike. Yes, yes, it's a no no. But what could they have done if they had found out? Fired me? I went with the Toshiter [as we call him... his name is Satoshi] and Hitomi. Their singing skills were awesome. Here's a picture of them a la my keitai.

After my last day of work, I went to toridori [yakitori] with Linda and Jess... and heard an interesting story about this massage parlor in Bali that... one should go to "just for the violation" as Linda put it. I guess you get this really.. er.. thorough service where they massage EVERY PART OF YOUR BODY. Hee hee. I thought it was cool.
Then on the 29th, I went to dinner, salsa dancing, and karaoke with Yuki-rin. She's the chicky that works at the department store down the street. We went to Ninnikuya [yay, for those of you who know the significance of Ninnikuya]... then to a bar called Campari in Katamachi. I have no clue how to salsa, but the basic steps and timing are easy and I found that if I had a partner who was a strong lead, it wasn't really a problem, but when I had a weak lead, I was completely lost. It was great. It was the first time I had really danced since being in Kanazawa and I'd like to try salsa dancing again in Hawaii. Any one wanna come with? Anyway, afterward, Yuki-rin and I wandered around and ran into John and Ramona-- Ramona went home and John, Yuki and I went to Shidax. I sounded like shit since my flu STILL hasn't gone away. Ah well. That was cool. We got home at 5 am. Here's a pic of Yuki.

Then the NEXT night, the 30th, I went out to dinner with Takurou. We went and had coffee at Starbucks first, and then we went to this Chinese restaurant. Really good. It was all you can eat/drink for Y2000 for 90 minutes. I was quite sad because in Japan, they don't let you doggy bag it... and we had ordered sooo much food. Anyway, while there, he gave me a going away present. A Ps2 video game called SNOW. It's apparently quite heart wrenching-- and his request to me was, that before I die, that I finish the game. It'll be good Japanese practice. He said it took him 30 hours to finish-- so it'll probably take me quadruple that because of the kanji. He said that once you play it that it makes you really value your family and friends all the more. Interesting. Oh, and AFTER dinner, we went to karaoke... and again, because I've been singing so often and going out so often, the SICKNESS made me sound like crap.

And oh yes, HAPPY NEW YEAR! It doesn't seem to be starting off so well. Yoshi sent me an email last night saying he lost the ring I'd given him and that his computer is being stupid. Well, I guess it was still December 31st there-- so maybe the year is ending on a bad note but it will start on a good one? I guess we'll find out. It was pouring rain, with thunder and lightening last night, so I turned down invitations to go out for a drink and go to Oyama Jinja for Ohatsumoude. I really want to kick this flu before I go home. So well, that leads me to a survey that my friend had on her Live Journal about 2004. Here goes:

1. Do anything for the first time?

I lived completely on my own in an apartment of my own.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I dont think I made any last year. This year, I will be more physically active. I will try to find my dreams. I will follow those dreams even if they are not profitable. I will try to be happy.

3. Did someone close to you give birth?

Close to me? A bunch of my old friends from high school did, but no one I'm really close with.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Wynee Wong. Rest in Peace my love. For an article about her death, see:

5. What countries did you visit?


6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?

My own home with Yoshi. A job that I truly enjoy. Less stress. My dad to be more healthy. My mom to get her spark back. More time to enjoy myself.

7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Uhm... May 22nd and 23rd, 2004. Laurel Parade and Graduation from MHC. September 1st-- leaving for Japan.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Graduating or making the decision to go back home to Hawaii. One of those.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Giving up on Japan.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Well, I've had the flu for 2 weeks? And I almost burned myself to death.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

My fuzzy blanket.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Behavior? No ones?

13. Whose behavior made you appalled?

Apalled? Americans who brought Bush back for another term.

14. Where did most of your money go?

To moving into my apartment and buying shit for it.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Going home to Hawaii.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?

I don't know. This one is tough. Some mix between the students' version of the MHC Alma Mater ["Oh Mount Holyoke we pay thee tuition..."], m-flo/Ryouhei/melody's "Miss You" and perhaps some other random song that I can't think of right now.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. older or wiser? wiser

ii. thinner or fatter? fatter

iii. richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Hung out with friends, been able to relax

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Eating. Sitting on my ass.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

I spent it at an Indian restaurant in Tatemachi called Shangrila.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?

A million times over with Yoshi. [Yeah, I'm sappy. A la Orange: "Shaaaddaaap!"]

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Law & Order: Special Victims Unit

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

I very seldom "hate" anyone...

26. What was the best book you read?

Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?


28. What did you want and get?

There's nothing that I wanted that I got, since I didn't get too many presents this year... unless... well, I bought a car.

29. What did you want and not get?

A job that made me happy.

30. Favorite film of this year?

Lovers/House of Flying Daggers starring Zhang Ziyi and Kaneshiro Takeshi

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Eek, that was almost a year ago... I think we went to that Japanese food restaurant in Noho called "Osaka" where they do all those kitchen cutting up food tricks.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Yoshi coming to Japan WITH me.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?

Unique, I guess. The same me, but a little more punk.

34. What kept you sane?

The internet.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

A toss up between Orlando Bloom, Johnny Depp, Hyde, and Kaneshiro Takeshi. The girls weren't that special this year.

37. Who did you miss?

Yoshi, Leah, Nana, Laura, Vans, Pete, Rae, Hero, Dave, Tamanegi, Liane, etc etc

38. Who was the best new person you met?

Takurou and Kazuo-san

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:

That I can't always do it alone.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

自分の幸せ願う事わがままではないでしょう ... for those of you who don't read Japanese, "Jibun no shiawase negau koto wagamama de ha nai deshou" which means "Wishing for your own happiness isn't selfish, is it?"

Monday, December 27, 2004

OMG- I could've DIED!

Last night, as I was getting ready to sleep, I turned on the heater to warm up the area near my futon. Apparently, I forgot to turn it off... and holy shinto was I surprised to see the fruits of my error! Last night, as I slept, the futon caught on fire... and I slept through it, and with the exception of being covered in soot and crispy futon, I escaped absolutely unscathed. Here's a picture of part of the damage... I'm so glad that someone was looking after me last night. *bows* Arigatou. *is totally shaken up*

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Sick. Broken. Xmas Party Part II. Xmas. Return.

I'm sick. I've been sick for a while with the flu. It really sucks.. and yes, I still have it. I think I haven't been drinking enough fluids to make it all go away. But it's sooo cold here, I don't want to drink anything because it sends a chill through me. I know, I know, I could be drinking tea... heh.

And in my sickness... culminating in a mini breakdown, I broke my beloved denshi jisho [electronic dictionary]. In my sickness, I managed to knock it off the computer desk. When I bent over to pick it up, I got woosley, tripped and stepped on it. The result of it being the picture below. Unfortunately, that was 2man down the drain... and now it's time for me to buy a new one.

Oh yeah, and Merry Xmas everyone. It wasn't so hot here. The Xmas Party Part II was alright. Expensive. We went to Chopstix Cafe in Katamachi. Lots of drinks and really weird food and a really great ENGRISH menu which of course I pocketed to show you guys at home. THat was a few hours there and then a few more hours at CJ's. I ended up just chatting with Chris [the owner of CJs] and Trevor the entire time. Good to just talk. That was a few days before Xmas.

On Xmas eve, I went to Kazuo-san's house to have a traditional Brazillian dinner. It was nice. I met his son-- Shousei-kun. I hadn't realized he had a son... so it was a wee bit of a bikkuri shita. I knew he had a wife, that she was a nurse, and that their relationship wasn't top notch, but yeah... so anyway, I also hadn't expected to meet the wife there since Kazuo-san said she wouldn't be coming. Instead, she came... and much to my chagrin, she's a student that I've taught once or twice before. Anyway, NHK Ishikawa came over and interviewed the Brazilian family about xmas and I had my grand Japan debut saying MELE KALIKIMAKA on tv. Woohoo. I looked silly.

I actually had to work on Xmas day, and aside from the Merry Xmas wishes from the co-workers, it was rather a pathetic day. After work, a bunch of us went to dinner at an Indian restaurant called Shangri-La. The food was ok. The Indian people weren't the nicest. It was a bit pricey, but I ate my fill.

And now for the grand news... I've decided to quit NOVA and go back to Hawaii. When it comes down to it, I just can't be alone in Japan and find happiness. I'm miserable here. And as soon as I sell my furniture, I will be going home. Until further notice.

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Update to Freezeframe

Hey all. I updated Freezeframe with pictures of random stuff that I thought was funny.

Oh, and Happy 26th Birthday, KAI! [Kai's my cool buddy from North Shore who sings Norwegian-inspired metal and a wicked "Staying Alive" rendition.]

Otherwise, I've been going through a minicrisis of sorts-- trying to decide what to do with my current career life. I'm in Japan, working for Nova. I'm not happy here. I gave up a job at FOX for this crap-- even though I was overworked and underpaid and I felt like I could've been used better there-- I was happier than I am now. It was the whole not being lonely factor, I'm sure.

Like I said about the resumes, I wrote them because a sensei of mine asked me to for one of his acquaintances. I've heard nothing. In the meantime, I've been informally offered a position as a co-DJ for a show on KZOO 1210 am-- the only Japanese radio station left in Hawaii. *Really wants to do it, I think* but I'm afraid of the repercussions of quitting Nova to go home for a job that couldn't even really be my lunch money here in Japan. Further, despite rumors that North Shore is going to be cancelled-- there seems to be some sign that FOX wants to give them a season 2. Harry was wonderful enough to say in his last email that if they get picked up, he'll put me in a position where my skills can be better used. *That's* really encouraging and I want to do that. So... yeah, it's a lot more complicated than that... but I just realized that it's 2 am and I really need to get some sleep so that I wake up in time for work tomorrow. I almost didn't make it today. I'll keep you all updated.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Still Trying to Make Friends

Met up with this girl, Mori Chie, on Friday. She's 24 and works at a hotel, I think doing banquet work. She's interesting, I guess. She's really pushy with her emails... and so, yeah, because Daddy called the other day, I missed my chance to go to an onsen, and instead I met Chie. We went to Mister Donuts to talk and then to karaoke. I've never sung so horribly at karaoke in my entire life! I was so embarassed. And she kept saying "your voice is cute." 9_9 *rolls eyes* Then she went home and I ate at a really small ramen shop near my house that has really good pork.

Yesterday, I skipped out on a going away party for Blaire and Summer to go to yakiniku at GyuKaku with Yuki. I also skipped out on an acapella performance I really wanted to go to. But, I'd already agreed to go to dinner with Yuki, so Takurou's invite came a little late. But anyway, yeah, met Yuki. She's the cutie who works in the department store down the street. She was saying she had a really low alcohol tolerance and boy, was she right. After just half the glass of beer, her face was red and she was ever so slightly out of control. But anyway, in her cute drunkeness, we managed to get free desserts from the cute waiter who obviously was attracted to her. Being that this is Japan, stuff like that never happens. Anyway, it would seem that if I have no other plans, I will be going to some kind of Salsa Dance party with her on December 29th. Hmm...

Anyway, I've been doing some mini-freaking-outness just about life. I'm really lonely and really frustrated at that loneliness. I don't have a confindante here. The closest thing I have is maybe Takurou... and my Japanese isn't good enough to just... talk. I can't always say what I want to say and if I try, I tend to only leave an impression of what I want to say. They don't get the whole story. *sigh* It's really frustrating. The longer I'm here, the more strongly I want to go home.

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Home Phone and Resumes Revisited and Weird SPAM

My home phone rang today... and it was my dad calling from his cell phone in Hawaii. I don't understand, but hell, the reason I got to phone was so he could call me. Mission accomplished, I guess?

I finished not just one, but BOTH of my Japanese resumes today. Spent 9 hours on the AmeResu. Then, today, found a .doc template of the Japanese formatted 履歴書[rirekisho], so did a bit of cut and pasting and such. SPent just 3 hours on it. Nice. Now, they're sitting in Aaron's inbox, waiting for him to have a spare second between work and his new baby girl, Solana Mele Isgar [born Halloween 2004], to correct my myriad mistakes. Yes, Mele is a Hawaiian name. I gave him my blessings.

Now, for the weirdness. I got a reaaaaally strange email on November 25th from Tassel T. Lobbied. The domain on the email seemed legit [] and because there was Japanese written on the bottom of the email, I thought it actually might NOT be Spam. It all made sense to me... but It was the strangest email I'd received in a while, so I responded to it and got an even stranger response back. I've decided that you all need to be privy to this email, so it's pasted below:
I'm so sorry! :)

It is defeat that turns bone to flint it is defeat that turns gristle to muscle it is defeat that makes men invincible.
A man cannot leave a better legacy to the world than a well-educated family.
The heavens and the earth and all that is between them, do you think they were created in jest?

Wishing to be friends is quick work, but friendship is a slow-ripening fruit.One half the world must sweat and groan that the other half may dream.
Nothing turns out to be so oppressive and unjust as a feeble government.
True love means two seeds grow separately until they join in Matrimony forever.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. [Hebrews 11:1]
Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes but no plans.
Inconsistency is the only thing in which men are consistent.

I sometimes wander whether all pleasures are not substitutes for joy.
It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves we are underlings.

Government is the great fiction, through which everybody endeavors to live at the expense of everybody else.

He that can work is born to be king of something.When matters are desperate we must put on a desperate face.
I dream of a place and a time where America will once again be seen as the last best hope of earth.

We are shaped and fashioned by what we love. Never hire someone who knows less than you do about what he's hired to do. That's one small step for a man, one giant leap for mankind.
Education forms the common mind. Just as the twig is bent, the tree's inclined.Being entirely honest with oneself is a good exercise.

The only time people dislike gossip is when you gossip about them.
One does a whole painting for one peach and people think just the opposite -- that particular peach is but a detail.
Courtesies of a small and trivial character are the ones which strike deepest in the grateful and appreciating heart.

The man that blushes is not quite a brute.

Itte rasshai

And when I responded, I got a delivery failure notice. But, where it should have quoted the original email and my written reply, instead it said:

How're you doing?

Never make the mistake of assuming the critters will beat a path to your door.


Fan Base, Stupid Home Phone and Japanese Resume

Wow... I rarely get any comments on my blog, but it seems everytime I chat with someone, and I mention something, they say, "Yeah, I read it on your blog." Or... they ask me "When's your next update?" I didn't realize that so many people read this thing... or perhaps it's not the number of people who read it... but the number of people who are dedicated to it. *Shrugs* Anyway, thanks for reading. It'd be great to get some emails or comments, but it makes me happy that you read anyway.

Now: home phone. I got BBPhone with my internet. It's not free, but it's fairly cheap. When you sign up, you don't get any paperwork that tells you how it all works, exactly. But I really wanted it so that my dad could set up some kind of special service with his cell phone company that would let him call me for cheap. Apparently, after much hassle... I discovered that my home phone cannot receive international calls. WHat the heck? It can do everything else except receive a phone call from out of Japan. It can CALL Hawaii, so why can't it RECEIVE a call from Hawaii? Stupid idiotic thing. So I called YahooBB and asked them about it and they said that I should have another number, issued by NTT. So I call BBPhone to double check and they said that I'm not connected to NTT at all, and that I don't actually HAVE a real number. Just my BBPhone. *Sigh* SO... unless I wanna pay an assload of money to establish an NTT number, you can't call my house. So, dammit, call my cell and be done with it, I guess. *Sigh*

Japanese resumes are EVIL. Aaron [for those of you who dunno who I'm talking about, he's one of my sensei from Kyoto] has sent me an email saying he has a friend at Yomiuri Television who wants to see my resume. So... I got all excited. At the same time, I got an email from Kanzaki [a DJ in Hawaii for KZOO] that there may be something for me there... MAYBE.. and I'm like *boggle.* But I figure, I'm in Japan, I should at least submit my CV. SO.. Aaron says I need to write 2 versions of my resume. A translated version of my American Resume, which I call AmeResu AND a Japanese formatted version of it. I've already spent 6 hours on my AmeResu and it's BAD, I'm sure. But I'm trying. The Japanese resume is actually quite crazy. THere's a national standard... that includes a picture AND where you went to Elementary school. WHY does the company need to know your elementary school background?? *shakes head* Anyway, I'm spending the next few days doing nothing but my resume. If you wanna help, wish me luck, or dammit, gimme a call. On my cell. SInce my house phone is stupid. Ok.

Monday, December 06, 2004

Nova Xmas Party Part I

I title it Nova Xmas Party Part I because there will be two parties and this is the first. Last night was the Nova Xmas Party @ Kentos. I think I mentioned Kentos before, but for those of you who don't wanna go find that entry, it's a swank 50's themed bar/club thing with a live band that does 4 stage-shows a night. Last night, for the cool price of 3000 yen [goodness, that's a lot of money] we could have one meal and all we could drink.

Foodwise, I opted for a Loco Moco. Yes, everyone. I said Loco Moco. Japan's been trying to Hawaiify for a while, and they're trying to pass loco mocos off as "real Hawaiian food." Of course, it only really exists in Hawaii-- but it's local grinds, ya know? Needless to say that Japan's version of the loco moco was lacking. THe gravy was completely different and the texture of the patty was a wee bit off. That, and they tried to give the impression of mac salad with this weak potato salad that I think they mixed with small fish eggs-- since it was pink and slightly fishy tasting. Odd. Really odd.

We also had a big Secret Santa deal with the limit being 300 yen. What the hell can you buy for 300 yen? My dood was Sam. A cool Aussie guy. I work with his gf, Jess and she informed me that he dug Naruto so I found a set of suction-cup shuriken with Naruto characters on them. I also got him 2 boxes of chocolate which were more for Jess than for him. The chocolates were special, decent quality chocos... the brand names of which were ASSE and HORN. Ok, mebbe only I think it's funny... but the AKPers who read this blog will feel the 懐かしさ of the ASSE. I spent 400ish yen on all that. I'm a bad girl, I know.

The person who had me was Blaire. Yet another Aussie who's actually leaving for home soon for good. He got me a deck of Pooh cards and this reaaaaally weird statue that has both boobs AND a penis. I don't know what to do with it-- but it's something that makes perfect sense to me as a gift, so.. *shrugs* I'll post a pic of it below.

People got pretty wasted and I was unfortunate enough to encounter flying wang later in the evening. Andrew, a coworker, got pretty gone and after the party at Kentos proceeded to run across the street with his pants and boxers around his ankles... oh, idk, 4 times? Really not what I was hoping to see... but it was harmless. We also headed over to karaoke at Big Echo. It seems it took us nearly an hour to get our asses there, even though it's literally just around the corner. And singing went poorly. By that time, I'd already lost my voice from trying to just talk to people at Kentos so I couldn't even hold a note. *le sigh* That, and people were all mad at each other again re: interupting other people's songs and such. Why does that always happen with the Nova ppl? It never happened with AKP and we went nearly EVERYDAY.

Oh well. Anyway. That was Xmas Party Part I. The night ended with a reaaaaally long, cold walk from down town to my apartment because I didn't have the money to spare for a cab. It was about 25-35 minutes. Poo. The next party is December 23rd. Wow, the months are flying quickly! But... not quickly enough.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

銭湯 and dreams.

Last night I went to a 銭湯 with Takurou. The kanji there is sentou, which equals PUBLIC BATH. We went to a place called しあわせの湯. Shiawase no yu. Means "happy hot water" basically. Twas good. And no, despite what you might be thinking, he didn't invite me to a place where the sexes go in together. The sexes were separate. And you know, I find that I'm still ok with being nekkid in front of a bunch of women [and the occasional little boy]. The only thing that was a little unnerving was the whole fact that I have a tattoo since it clearly states on a sign before I entered that tattoos were not welcome. I've been kicked out of places like that before... but I didn't try to hide it. I figured that since my hair is waist-length now, it hid it ok... except, you know, for when i put my hair up in the towel so that my hair doesn't trail in the water.

Thankfully, I was only approached about it by two curious older women. The convo sort of went like this:

"Oneechan, what is that?"
"What is what?"
"That thing on your back."
"A tattoo."
"What is it of?"
"Sonkei no son [i.e. honor/respect, a lotus, and flames]"
"Did it hurt?"
"No, not at all."
"Are you Japanese?"
"No, I'm from Hawaii."
"Hawaii? But you're not fat."
"Do you know Akebono? He's fat. And his mother? She's fat too. Aren't all people in Hawaii fat?"
"No, but there are many bigger people."
"Oh, I see."

[btw, I'm 60 kg now which puts me at 132 lbs and that's MUCH lighter than I was in Hawaii this past summer!] That's sort of where it stopped. Thankfully. If they had wanted, they could have gone to complain to the staff and had me kicked out. Thank goodness for speaking Japanese and being able to explain myself. I think it's the "I'm from Hawaii" bit that did it. We stayed for about an hour.

Afterward, we went to rent a video. Queen of the Damned, since I hadn't seen it. On the way driving to my place to watch it... Takurou says "This will be my first time watching a video with a girl." And I went o_O. Eh? So I commented that I'd been just watching vids with guys for as long as I can remember [or you know, since middle school or something]. And he's like, "yeah, but that has no meaning... this will be the first time watching a video with a girl and there's just the two of us." And again, I was like o_O;;. So, I said "Yeah, Japanese people and Americans are really different, huh..." Lol. I'm not sure what that really meant. Maybe that it's normal for guys and girls to watch a vid together with no implications. And btw, Queen of the Damned is a shitty movie. My bad for picking that one, but I'd been meaning to watch it since it came out-- you know my obsession with vampires. Well, I guess that's it.

Oh... and I was thinking lately... you know, I have no dreams. Yoshi was talking to me about that lately. What do I want to do with myself? What do I enjoy? I don't know. What do I want to be? I say that I'm trying to find a job in Japanese media, but it seems that I'm just trying to do that because it's a goal... not necessarily cuz that's what I really want to do. I was good at my job when I worked with North Shore... Michelle cried when I left and even the exec producers and the 2nd in charge of FOX [FOX VP] were bothered by the fact that I left... but I wasn't extremely happy there either. I have no real ambitions other than to be happy. But I can't seem to be happy when I'm 1... alone... and 2... not content with my current position. I feel like such a failure. I went to college... went through the motions... and still I have nothing. I don't have a direction I want to go in. Sigh. And Yoshi kept saying "I can't help you cuz I don't even know what you want. What you like. The only thing you can do is start dreaming again." ...You know, I don't know how. If I *knew* how, I would. Ya know? *sigh* I donut. (o) Poo. Any suggestions? If so, lemme know.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Links and Quotes

First, links of interest.

A Sobering Look at Life

Llama Song

Bunny Song

Now, quotes of various sources and such. First quote comes from a discussion between Ka-chan and myself re: the ikkyuu. [i.e. Japanese proficiency test... top level]

eternal mists: oh no, if kachan can't do it, mochi can't
tr eK ibilia: Piffle, I had to go into a city I swore I would never go to during a blizzard to go take it. ;)
tr eK ibilia: And I came in eye-clawing distance of passing! So see? With no travails, see how well you would do!
eternal mists: but again, recall the mindrape that was the ikkyuu
eternal mists: remember what it did to you
tr eK ibilia:True.. ;)
tr eK ibilia: I still haven't recovered! But soon! Soon!
eternal mists: why would i want to subject myself to that??
tr eK ibilia: Because you're kinky?
tr eK ibilia: Surely masochism is mixed in there somewhere?
tr eK ibilia:It doesn't get any more brutal than that, either!
eternal mists: well yeah, that night with the whips and chains was rather fun...
eternal mists: oh... no no no... you didn't read that
tr eK ibilia: ... I sure didn't! But I may still copy/paste it to influential people and use it to bribe you later in life, when you stand on the cusp of success!

We also had a battle to the death.

eternal mists: piercing your own ear when the piercing machine you just bought is broken really sucks
tr eK ibilia: ... ;)
tr eK ibilia: Can I just say, you are so hardcore?
eternal mists: you can indeed say that
eternal mists: i used to pierce my own ears and whatever else before
eternal mists: but i hadn't done it in a while
eternal mists: and i fucked up so i pulled it out and broke the machine
eternal mists: and ooh the blood b^_^'
tr eK ibilia: Nice rendition there! ;)
tr eK ibilia: Eesh.
eternal mists: thank you
eternal mists: *bows as the crowd goes wild*
tr eK ibilia: ::shudders again::
eternal mists: are you not big on blood?
eternal mists: it's funny, i've never bled from my ears before ^_^
tr eK ibilia: No, small amounts of blood is kind of cool! But I'm sensitive about like.. ear torture and things like that. ;)
tr eK ibilia: I'm very proud of your new experience, though! It's a magical time of year, indeed! ;)
eternal mists: *comes after you with a needle*
tr eK ibilia: ::runs fast and runs far::
eternal mists: *in classic kung fu style ala "lovers/house of flying daggers", throws the needle at you and watches with pleasure as it pierces the fleshiness of thine ear*
tr eK ibilia: ::staggers to a halt, frozen in space and time by the power of your kungfu::
tr eK ibilia: ::as the needle flashes, time begins to move again::slowly crumbles into a heap, a trickle of blood darkening the ground::
eternal mists:*does a victory dance*
eternal mists:this conversation will be posted on my blog i think
tr eK ibilia: Aww. ;)
tr eK ibilia: My weakness will be revealed for all to see, and I'll be plagued by villains for the rest of my days. :
eternal mists: indeed

From a postcard I bought just cuz it semi-explained me.

"She wanted to move around. She wanted to squirm and wriggle and dance. She wanted to purr like a lioness and roar like a sex kitten. She wanted to sing in French and German [actually, insert Asian languages here]. She wanted strong colors. She dressed in avocado. Never ate it though."

A good quote about intelligence. Taken from Neal Stepenson's The Diamond Age or A Young Lady's Illustrated Primer.

"In your Primer you have a resource that will make you highly educated, but it will never make you intelligent. That comes from life. Your life up to this point has given you all the experience you need to be intelligent, but you have to think about those experiences. If you don't think about them, you'll be psychologically unwell. If you do think about them, you will become not merely educated but intelligent, and then, a few years down the road, you will probably give me cause to wish I were several decades younger."

A grand insult from the above noted book.

" yourself, mister alienated loner steppenwolf bemused distant meta-izing technocrat rationalist fucking shithead."

At Jamie's request

Hey all. So by the request of Jamie [British dood at work who wears a short tie and who speaks the "Queen's English"... which, as we all know, is not REAL English by any means.. *smiles innocently at Jamie and waves*] I am updating my page.

Nothing much to report. We had a Thanksgiving party a few days after T-day at Kieran/Adam/Erick's house. It was a good turn out and Lili and her roommate, Lauren, did a fab job of cooking up a storm. No turkey considering it's near impossible to get and would be pointless, anyway, because of Japan's convenient lack of true ovens. I was in charge of getting the apple pie. Again, another near impossibility when you're not in a big city or you don't want to pay an arm and a leg. After searching like a crazy woman, I bought a pear tart from Budou no Ki for about 2100 yen. Wasn't apple pie, but DAMN was it nummy.

Also went to Kitokito Sushi with Kazuo-san and to Ninnikuya for Ramona's birthday, recently. Again, nothing much to report.

I must mention, though, that I got reprimanded at work the other day. I went through follow-up training recently and apparently said something things that were overheard that were not ok. I mentioned, during one of my breaks, that the other day, the Japanese staff had given me literally 1 minute to plan a lesson. I had already planned it, really, but a minute before the bell, the staff added another student to my class and being that he'd done nearly every lesson, it made for very high stress. Afterward, I semifreaked out at her, like "dood, that was uncool. I couldn't plan that fast. Please don't do that again." When I say freaked out, it's more like complained a bit considering that my Japanese isn't really good enough to do a big freak out that would be effective. ^_^ Anyway, I also, at training, asked a question re: a thing we have called Voice, which is basically a mix-level teacher-fascilitated convo. I asked, basically, "what do you do with a student who is there everyday and has literally done every activity in our voice resource packet?" I received no answer, although it was a serious question... and it earned me a phone call from the big manager to our branch manager, who then had to give me a talking to of sorts. As you all know, I have a tendency to come across as bitchy and perhaps my serious question was taken in the wrong light. But...

Le sigh. C'est la vie, I guess... although, I must say that it helped to push me away from Nova even more.